Merry meet dear friends*

Today my heart is heavy... My Grandfather from my father's side has passed away this afternoon.... He had Alzheimer's disease and was in the hospital being treated for a chest inflamation... Me and my parents are going to the Algarve tomorrow morning... the funeral is to be held on Thursday...

*thank you for everything*

Inês ~ Misha )O(

Merry meet dear friends...:)

Well, well...

It has been awhile since I've posted regularly here...

I am sorry my friends... I have been under some stress lately ... I'm finishing my work at the Lab for my Master's Thesis and I will start writing it soon!... So, you can imagine that I'm full of work!

A little update on my mom... She has already finished the Radiotherapy and restarted the Chemo... The less agressive one. Nevertheless she is now in some pain because she has some fluid in her lungs: the doctors will remove it tomorrow. Let's pray that the pain finishes after that... She will make a major exam in the next weeks to see if the tumours responded to the therapy.

Almost a year ago I've started my Dianic Wicca study... I'm almost finishing the first year of study: I've learned a lot, but I still have a Lot to learn: thank you Danella ~ Lady Fox Fire and Emma ~ Lady Igraine for your lessons...

Now, in other news... Went to the Nightwish concert with the new vocals... BAH, nothing compares to Tarja (although I have to give Annette 5 stars for the effort...) The new songs are great and Annette sings them very well (nevertheless the ones I like most are While your lips are still red and The Islander that are sang by Marco...LOL!!!)... I had a great time with my friend, that's all that matters...

Upcoming are the IRON MAIDEN (July 9th) and WITHIN TEMPTATION (July 11th) concerts... UHUUUUUUUU... has you see I've only 1 day between both of them... so... lol, I will be without any voice until September!!!...

I Love You All Very Much!

Thank you for your prayers, kind words and energies...

On Sunday I've promised to myself that I would re-start writing my book... I will have to do so...

*In Love and Light*

Inês - Misha )O(

Merry meet my dear Friends.... 

I am writing you on behalf of my mother who is my pilar and my hero also... 

About 6 years ago my mother was diagnosed with colon cancer. She had a surgery and the doctors removed about 20 cm of her intestine. She did some treatment (non agrssive) and after that she performed regular colonoscopies and major exams to detect new tumours (because colon cancer cells are the ones with biggest mobility and they can spread very quickly and to everywhere). 

Two years ago, in a major exam, doctors found she had a metasthasis in her right lung. They decided to do the surgery to remove the tumour and some of the surrounding tissue to avoid migration of cells. After that surgery my mom did chemotherapy for 6 months to prevent new methastasis and after that the doctors stopped the treatment (they found that there were no more dangerous nodules). 

Last February, on one of those major exams my mom performs every 2 months, doctors found that she had  2 little nodules in the pleura surrounding the right lung (the one affected before) and in the supra-renal glands. She started imediate treatment (chemo again) for 2 months and today she had an exam to show if she was responding to treatment. 

Unfortunately the tumours where not responding to the treatment and worst, they even got bigger... So, my mom started a new therapy today...

My mom is a woman of great strength. We had a close friend of her age who died of cancer almost ten years ago and I know my mom was very affected by her death. So she is very decided to fight this terrible disease.

My mom is well, she has no pain and she is not medicated for that either. The side effects of the treatment are the worst: nausea, vomiting and diarrhea but they only last one day. The other days my mom is well and only feels a little sick in the morning before she eats. 

In all these years my mom never stopped working: just a month in this last treatment (March). 

I know that she is well, but she is also scared, and so am I. So please dear friends, if you can keep her in your prayers I would be very thankfull... If you have any advice, please: I'm all "ears". 

Thank you for everything dear Friends... 

Goddess bless!!!

 *In Perfect Love and Perfect Trust* 

Ines - Misha )O(

Merry meet dear friends here at Covenspace!

I know I've been away for a long time...My work has been taking over the control of my life... It's not a bad thing although I'm a little tired...

I am now relaxing at home...listening to Avenged Sevenfold...absorbing some energy from music... This year will be wonderful, Portugal will be stage to some Major Metal Bands to play... Iron Maiden, Nightwish (with new vocals), Within Temptation, Slayer, Metallica, Avenged Sevenfold and some more... so guys... if you want to come please do!... I'm hoping to go and see all of them...I love Metal and I love the energy the music brings me... Specially if it's a live concert...

Enough blabing... I just want to wish you all a great Ostara (or mabon if you're in the South Hemisphere)!!!!!

It's great to have you here always for me...

I will post some more poems soon..

*In Her Service, In Perfect Love and Perfect Trust*

Misha

Darkness and Sadness
Filling my heart
The night is close and I'm falling,
Falling apart...
My love is gone
And soon I'll be gone too
The world is empty now...
Without you...
My thoughts are being
Pulled away by the despair
That drowns me
I'm not living, I'm not dying
I don't know who I am now!
If I could cry I wouldn't
If I could be I wouldn't
If I could fly I wouldn't
If I could die I wouldn't
Because...
Death is all around me
I can't remember how it feels to live
The rain washed my face and I can feel it!
The blood runs through my veins and I can't feel it!!!
I cut myself and I bleed
The blood reminds me of sunset skies
I feel nothing...
I'm empty! I'm nothing!
I'm dead! I'm alive!
I don't know!
I can't remember!
I'm just being what I must!
I'm not living my life!
I feel empty and disgraced!
I can't remember your face...
Must I die? Must I live?
Must I know?
Can I remember all the pleasures of Life?
All the temptations of Death?
Can I remember?

Inês Perpétuo, 2001